No one knows me better…
Psalms 139;1-18, 23.
1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand-
when I awake, I am still with you.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
No one knows me as God does. Not my son, not my husband, not my parents, or brothers, or sisters-not even my best friend! God knows me from before my creation; from before THE creation! He “created my inmost being,” and “knit me together in my mother’s womb.” I cannot hide from Him. He knows not only where I am, at all times, He knows my thoughts. No matter how deep or dark or depressing they are. He knows. He knows how I feel- no matter how hard I try to hide it from the world-God knows. I cannot flee from Him. He knows where I am going even before I go there! “Before a word is on my tongue, you know it completely, O Lord.” Verse 23 says “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” Yes, he knows all of my thoughts; good, bad, happy, sad, worried, anxious- ALL of them. And yet…He loves me. Completely. Wholly. So much that he ONLY has what’s best for me in His Perfect Will. He is ALWAYS there, ready to listen, ready to show me the way. I only need to follow.
“Lord, please help me to remember that you know me, and love me, better than anyone else. You only want what’s best for me. And I only need to trust and follow you. Amen”