Monthly Archives: June 2011

Reminds Me Of Dry Bones

Proverbs 17:22 – “A cheerful heart is good medicine but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.”

Lord I pray to you and lift you up!

My spirit was crushed this morning. Not too bad and not for very long but crushed nonetheless. A few careless words were tossed my way and my spirit, my heart, and my feelings were hurt.

Funny how your spirit is crushed and how it dries up the bones when at the same moment the eyes become moist with tears.

Those hurtful words affect not only us but those around us.  It affects the one who crushed our spirit to begin with.

You have taught me Lord that a cheerful heart is like good medicine. It not only does us good but also those around us.

It’s sometimes difficult to remember how our actions and words affect others both positively and negatively.

It reminds me of a song my mother used to sing to me, “Oh be careful little tongue, what you say…”.

It also reminds me of God’s word in James 3, chapters 7 and 8 that says, “All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and sea creatures are being tamed and have been tamed by mankind. But no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil full of deadly poison. You’ve shown me how words can hurt, or heal.”

Thank you Lord for reminding me today to always be careful of what I say and do.

“Guide my feet into the direction you would have them go and may the words that come out of my mouth be pleasing to you so I may be good medicine to others.

Amen.”

My Fervent Prayer

Speak to me Lord as I wait here in the dark.

I’m listening for your voice from deep inside my heart.

I want your direction not knowing where to turn.

I seek your perfection as more of you I learn.

I yearn just to please you with my ordinary life.

I walk through my days being sister, mother, and wife.

Trying to remember all the things you’d have me do.

Doing unto others as you would have me do.

You show me mercy, love, and gratitude.

I sometimes struggle to have a positive attitude.

Yet I know that you are listening as I speak my fervent prayer

I know you will answer and I know how much you care.

So I know that even if I feel lost at times.

You will always have the answers even though I feel blind.

So when I cannot see you I will simply trust your heart.

And know that from my side you never will depart.

Protect, love, and guide me. I surrender to your will.

At last I see your plan and with great joy I’m filled.

I Have Failed

I have failed. Well, there’s nothing new in THAT sentence. Not from MY perspective, at least.  I fail on a daily basis. I fail to keep my temper. Fail to get the household chores done. Fail to stick to my diet. Well, at least as closely as I should anyway.

However, today I am thinking of another area I have failed in; the area of being a wife and mother.  After reading Proverbs 31:10-31 (NIV), I am ashamed to say I am not close to this biblical example of the perfect wife. But who is?  Yes, I know the areas I need to work on like being more productive with my time and not getting short tempered with my husband and at least SOME cooking. It’s the area of my heart that concerns me the most.  Verse 30 says: “Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”  Am I charming?  I can be…when the occasion calls for it. Am I beautiful?  In my own eyes I’m not, but as we all know; beauty is in the eye of the beholder.  Do I fear God?  If, as I have been taught, the word “fear” when used in this way means respect, then I often fail in this area. Do I love God? Yes. Am I thankful to God for all He does for me?  All the blessings I have? Yes. Do I lean on Him when I am weak? Certainly, but I fall short in the area respect.

I do respect His power and authority; however, I tend to think I can do what I want to do as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone. But if it is against God’s will, it does hurt someone; sometimes myself, sometimes my witness, sometimes others I don’t even realize that it’s hurting, but always God.

When I choose to disobey Him, I am choosing to disrespect Him.  And that is something that I have to work on; me and God, in our walk together.  Something I need to bring to Him and let Him have.  My will is something I must turn over to God.  It may not turn out the way I hope, but it will, inevitably turn out for my good.

In the end, what He wants for me IS my good. “For I know the plans I have for you.” Declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)

He has only my good in His heart, at the center of my will.

So, why do I resist being there? I resist because my will gets in the way.  I want to get in there and fix things. As if God needs my help or my meddling to accomplish His perfect will. He doesn’t need my help. He only needs my willingness to be His empty vessel. He needs my willingness to be available and listening for His call.

So, here I am once again at His feet bowing in contrition, repentance and respect.

Dear Lord, please forgive me for allowing my will to get in the way of yours.  Please remind me that only you have my best interest at heart.  Please go before me today and always and steer me into the center of your perfect will.

Shape me into the woman that pleases only you.

Lord, you may have to remind me that only you direct me.

Thank you, Dear Lord, for all of my many blessings. Amen.”

This Is The Prayer Of An Afflicted Person

Psalm 102
This is the prayer of an afflicted person who has grown weak and pours out a lament before the LORD.

1 Hear my prayer, LORD;
let my cry for help come to you.
2 Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.

3 For my days vanish like smoke;
my bones burn like glowing embers.
4 My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
5 In my distress I groan aloud
and am reduced to skin and bones.
6 I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
7 I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
8 All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
9 For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
10 because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
11 My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.

12 But you, LORD, sit enthroned forever;
your renown endures through all generations.
13 You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
for it is time to show favor to her;
the appointed time has come.
14 For her stones are dear to your servants;
her very dust moves them to pity.
15 The nations will fear the name of the LORD,
all the kings of the earth will revere your glory.
16 For the LORD will rebuild Zion
and appear in his glory.
17 He will respond to the prayer of the destitute;
he will not despise their plea.

18 Let this be written for a future generation,
that a people not yet created may praise the LORD:
19 “The LORD looked down from his sanctuary on high,
from heaven he viewed the earth,
20 to hear the groans of the prisoners
and release those condemned to death.”
21 So the name of the LORD will be declared in Zion
and his praise in Jerusalem
22 when the peoples and the kingdoms
assemble to worship the LORD.

23 In the course of my life he broke my strength;
he cut short my days.
24 So I said:
“Do not take me away, my God, in the midst of my days;
your years go on through all generations.
25 In the beginning you laid the foundations of the earth,
and the heavens are the work of your hands.
26 They will perish, but you remain;
they will all wear out like a garment.
Like clothing you will change them
and they will be discarded.
27 But you remain the same,
and your years will never end.
28 The children of your servants will live in your presence;
their descendants will be established before you.”

Sometimes I go through a dark, lonely, desolate place in my life. Sometimes it seems as though the Enemy is truly out to destroy me and then I remember that he IS out to destroy me! He IS here to prey on me at my weakest moment. At times it seems as though no one can understand what I am going through.  I look and look and can’t seem to find someone I can talk to who has been through what I am experiencing. Music helps. I have certain songs that I listen to, sing, and use to cry out to God; “In the Presence of Jehovah”, “I Bless Your Name”, and “Trust His Heart” to name a few.

God knows what I am going through. He not only understands, He is there waiting for me to come to Him. He waits for me to cry out to Him and to tell Him my deepest darkest secrets.  Yes, He already knows them but He still wants me to come to Him and to confide in Him. He wants me to spill out the contents of my heart to him.   He not only knows what I am going through, He also knows how it will all turn out. Sometimes I just need to be reminded of that. God already knows the answer and is just waiting for me to catch up to Him. There is some comfort in that and it brings to mind my favorite verse; John 16:31-33.

In it Christ is speaking to His disciples, shortly before His betrayal and crucifixion:
31 “Do you now believe?” Jesus replied.
32 “A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me.
33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Christ knew what was ahead of Him; the pain, suffering, and loneliness He would soon be experiencing.  But, He also knew, as part of the Holy Trinity, that God had overcome not only anything ahead of Him, but anyone else, too!  The image of the owl, in the Psalms passage above, struck me, so I did a little research: according to Fausset’s Bible Dictionary, “Psalm 102:6, “I am like an owl in a ruin expressing his loneliness, surrounded by foes, with none to befriend.”

But, I need to always remember, as it says in Psalms 102:11-18: We “wither like grass”, but He (God) “sits enthroned forever.” His “renown endures through all generations.” Through ALL generations! Generation after generation after generation, for ALL of the generations to come!

Verse 13- 18 says:

13. You will arise and have compassion on Zion, for it is time to show favor to her; the appointed time has come.
14. For her stones are dear to your servants; her very dust moves them to pity.
15. The nations will fear the name of the Lord, all the kings of the earth will revere your glory.
16. For the Lord will rebuild Zion and appear in his glory.
17. He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea.
18. Let this be written for a future generation, that a people not yet created may praise the Lord.”
Not only does He KNOW what lies ahead for us but He has compassion and hears our heart’s cries!

Even when we feel as lonely as the desert owl, He responds to our prayers.

He sits on His throne, now and forever more, our loving, compassionate, and all-knowing ruler!  Praise God!

Glimpse in2 my soul

Hi-I’m Monica, and this is a place for me to share my thoughts, feelings, opinions, and maybe even some useful information every now and then.  Sometimes it may be happy, or silly, and sometimes it may be sad, or reflective.  Regardless, I hope we can grow and learn together.  This is, and will always be, a Glimpse in2 my soul.

 

Monica